When I was young, I would constantly find myself in a state of regret for having said the wrong thing at the wrong time. Over time, I would work to finesse the ability of addressing an insult, a slight to the point of making said insulting person instantly regret having taken me on. This is not a positive trait, and worse, the better you are at this game, the worse you feel about yourself.

I want a re-do. I want to fly back into time and change how I would handle these things. I want to do so because I believe each instance created a miniature character flaw upon my person and that if I could unwind all of these moments, no matter how small, then I could be a better person.

I could work to be a better person anyway. And I do try, every day. But there are many people in my past wearing the bullet holes of my words and it is this I regret. I have no way to reach into the past and communicate that to the people I have injured.